You sound like a nice person who needs some people who will appreciate it better. Easier said than done, I know. I often feel some things similar to you, although instead of thinking my "friends" and family don't give me enough time, I always think I should try harder to find closer friends. It is always a struggle to find time to do that though. Maybe you would be better than me at keeping nice people around when you meet them, since you sound so nice. Do you find any time to go out and meet new people? I like to go to meetups and other low pressure activities that many people attend by themselves. Do you live in an area that has much of that kind of thing? I guess it would be harder in a rural area.