Are you taking your treatment, your illness, your probationary time and your desire to reunite with your family seriously?
It appears you spend a lot of time and energy trying to find ways to deceive those involved in your care and the people in your life.
I'm concerned you are going to permanently burn bridges with people who do care and with those who love you. That would be seriously tragic, Raspberry. That would be so very sad for everyone. What would you do then? (rhetorical)
Now is the time to make choices which optimize all of your relationships -- mutual honesty, respect/sincerity, trustworthiness and more -- with care providers, with your husband and daughter, with family and friends.
We all care and want to see you get your life back on track.
WC