Well after how today went I finally made a decision. I am going to stay the heck away from people. All they ever do is cause me grief and pain. I have tried and tried to fit in, to get people to like me, but nothing ever works.

Maybe its time to just cut my losses and throw in the towel and become a hermit. Its lonely with no friends or anyone that really cares if I live or die besides my husband and kids but maybe its for the best. I seriously cant take no more. Tired of crying over and over because of this.

Folks I don't know if I will come back anymore. Right now even being here seems like too big of a risk. I just cant try anymore, it hurts too much to keep being rejected like I am some sort of human trash. Sometimes I wonder why I was even born.

Why do people got to be so mean? I mean would it kill someone to be my friend? Am I really that bad? I don't know maybe I am. I am crying to hard to type anymore so I guess I will just say good bye and I really do hope all of you have wonderful lives. I hope you feel better and don't let bipolar disorder get you down. Good bye