{{{{{{{{{Peanut}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

My eyes are so swollen from crying, my head hurts, and I can't sleep at all. My poor back and leg aren't very happy either. He told me that I am completely worthless, a freak. And he did it all in front of my son.

I took one pain med and half-way dozed off having a dream of finally ending all this pain. I know you care, which is why I am sitting here at 3:30am. The urge to just do it is so much there right now - the only thing is I don't want my son to find me in the morning. He doesn't deserve that.

Ty for being here........for caring. With my luck, another day is coming where I get to listen to his garbage because I can't provide cigs for him..........I get so tired of being beaten down and trying to get back up. It's an endless cycle of pain.

{{{{{{{hugs & kisses}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Mary Alice