Thread: co con n more
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Old Sep 16, 2016, 02:00 PM
finding_my_way finding_my_way is offline
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i was just thinking about this actually. i used to think i experienced co-consciousness, and i guess sometimes it is that, but it's often more co-presence.

when that happens, other parts (sometimes more than one) are closer to the surface, just behind me, or actually in the same space/mix with me. i do not think that they always know that is happening as they don't really talk to me or anything. i can feel them, their feelings, etc. and sometimes am able to figure out 'why' they are there (like from being triggered sometimes), but i also don't know all the time what is them and what is me feeling or thought wise.

it can be really confusing. i know it's not a type of integration in my case because it never stays like that. they go back inside/further away from me. sometimes, i am barely here or there are other weird things that happen like such severe dissociation i get very dizzy and disoriented and can barely see/keep track of things and tend to forget a lot about the time after a few hours or days.

my psychiatrist did say it is 'better' to have that type of thing than complete time loss (i wouldn't always agree just because sometimes what i feel from some of them is so difficult). IF integration is ever a goal though, having that can make it easier in the long run compared to not knowing what the others are doing.