Remembered to take my Lamictal today. Called and cancelled my therapy appointment for Tuesday, didn't feel like going to be honest. Right now it's just a blah day, a little depressed today, I think k the 26st when I see my psychiatrist I'm going to see if I can't add in an antidepressant (preferably a weight neutral one) into my cocktail. Also feeling a little more "real" today, and seeing the world as a bit more "real" today, maybe my Geodon is helping with that, my psychiatrist.said meds wouldn't help this, but they kind of do.simce we upped the dosage, I still have my bad days, where I fully believe nothing is real and I dont exist (my therapist says it's disassociation, I also think there's some delusional thinking mixed in too), I still do get paranoia, but it isn't as bad either, at least I don't think the police are after me all the time. So things are kinda of progressing a little bit at a time, baby steps.