Im so depressed today. Im snapping at people. Angry in general. And i just want to be alone. With noresponsibilities.

First of all. Im on day 2 of going from 150mg trileptal to 300mg.

Second. I went to the endocrinologist today. He said my thyroid is 35% scar tissue. Meaning its functioning at 65% i guess. And theybalso found a nodule. They are doing a biopsy on it on wednesday.

Im so worried. My best friend literally just got done with radiation and chemo for thyroid cancer.

They did more bloodwork today. When the results get back in about a week, i will go back in to start on meds.Synthroid im assuming.

I also found out im 147lbs. Thats high for me. Like, ive gained about 50 pounds in the last year. I feel gross and fat and sad. And im effing scared.

I really just wanna say ef this and get drunk tonight.