Also, the more stressful overall that life becomes...I have in the past and still tho to a lesser extent (I think??), have reverted back to complete autonomy. Unaware, each fully own sense of agency..tho the memories that have inteegrated.. I am no longer aware that they are shared. They become as 100% my own..until, something drastic enough occurs that I seem to have to relearn..that I have DID and come back to terms like it's the first time again that the other parts actually exist! Tho not all other parts apparently go thru this same repeating cycle of denial (?) and shock...Why am I such a,mess??