I've posted several times about me e-mailing my T. I end up being hurt beacuse she doesn't respond when I need her, which seems to be every second of every day.

My T and I have dicussed this, she says she doesn't mind at all my e-mailing but she can't always respond. She also said forr me to stop e-mailing an apology after e-mailing her to begin with. I do this because I think she hates me, its not true, but I seem to have 2 concious entities in me. 1 being positive and 1 being negative.

The negative over powers my positive...I guess I'm weak aren't I?

I tried to resist the craving of feeling to e-mail her. But my mind got overwhelmed and I just had to yesterday, I was crying and felt a release.

She hasn't e-mailed me back...its almost been 1 day....

She's a very busy person..I should know that...I'm just sooo negative that every goodthing turns bad.....

I'm sorry if I sound dumb...I just don't know what to do....

I feel horrible......