Dont call yourself weak!! You are reaching out, and that takes courage...I was thinking, the power of typing out what you're going through is neat to see it in print, perhaps an alternative to writing your T would be to write on an online journal such as livejournal.com, you can keep it completely private from others, you can rate your mood, everything from pensive to artstic to dorky to melancholy, and you see a face feel what you are feeling once you label your mood. You can change the journal's format to go with your mood, record the music that was playing while you were writing, give your entry a title, edit your entries, it is powerful force at understanding your mood...another option is to keep us posted here at PC writing it out that way....or posting a poem or short story in the creative corner expressing yourself that way...or pictures..does any of this help? write back, junerain