Hi everyone. I went to my colleges counseling center and asked what to do because I don't have a doctor and everything is getting worse at a very rapid pace. So she asked me to get an assessment for outpatient. She told me I would be medically excused and can make up my work and such but that's not what I'm worried about. Every single time I go, I end up inpatient. Even if I'm not a harm to myself or others. I think it's simply because I'm always hearing voices and not on meds, I definitely couldn't tell them half of my thoughts about paranoid thoughts, SI/SH urges, etc. I can't go into detail. But I never really do and I always end up inpatient. Since I don't have a doctor, outpatient would be the fastest way to see a doctor but I'm too scared. I'm supposed to go on Sunday but I'm scared I'll not go because I'm scared. Then if I go to school, I feel like cops will be waiting for me and they'll track me down when I'm in class or something. I haven't been able to eat all day. My stomach keeps turning and turning. The hospital is a trap. Now I feel like the school is working with them.

Can you just say no to inpatient?