Im taking a ....guess. ... that this may not have anything to do with your past abuse...mind you only your own treatment providers can say for sure..

the reason I am making this ..... guess.. is because here in my location adults who have been abused as children do everything they possibly can to be in control and responsible so that they do not get harmed again. those adults who have been abused as children that I know usually want to be anything but child like\ small and vulnerable that can lead to being abused again. they want people to see that they are no one to mess with, some take the attitude of Ill strike out at you before you can even think of harming me, see Im not that child who could be abused. Im the one in control of what happens to me and in my life not someone else that may be lurking ready to abuse me kind of attitude. Some even take this show the world Im the one in control now not able to be abused to the point of controlling in even their sexual activities sometimes to the point of being promiscuous.

here in my location its normal for young adults to not want to be responsible, they want to be free of rules and some take the attitude ofI dont want to work or go to college, I just want to hang out and party hearty. and other variations of being suddenly thrust into the world of adult hood as ayoung 18-25 yr old.

again I cant say for sure whether what is going on with you is or isnt because of your abuse history. only your own treatment providers can say that...

my suggestion is if this continues to bother you contact your medical doctor or a mental health treatment provider who can tell you for sure if this is normal or part of your history.