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Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman
Your being punished for being in an accident while following safety protocols while working for a city smells like you should have some kind of formal avenue for recourse; do you belong to a union? Can you file a complaint? Seeking justice through official channels might be a stressful headache, but your complaint has to be taken seriously, and doing anything in your defense might make you feel better. As for your frustration from your treatment in your studies, academia has a reputation for all that garbage, but is there a dean or advisor to whom you can complain, or just vent? It all sounds egregiously unfair.
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I was just angry that there was nothing I could have done to prevent the accident (unless I ironically circumvented the safety protocols). The city is paying for all medical bills that the other person involved in the accident's insurance won't cover and workman's comp is covering future chiropractic visits since I had gotten whiplash which had aggravated neck problems I've already had. Not only that but my department has revised policy and the city has begun making the changes necessary to make the job safer for everyone. And my entire department (including supervisors and I'm pretty sure their supervisors) are pushing for change. I have since gotten a small raise and have moved on from seasonal to part-time year round work, so I think all in all the city and the department has done what is necessary to make up for what happened. And the reforms surprisingly began happening immediately. So my complaint, or rather the paperwork filed after the accident HAS been taken seriously. I wish it hadn't happened in the first place (and that's what I'm angry about), but the aftermath is a lot better (and less corrupt) than I expected.
As for the issues at my university, unfortunately they (the school as a whole, as there are still good professors there) don't seem to realize that I could technically have the last laugh in the end. I will not be donating any money to that school. When my future undergrads discuss graduate school, I will make sure to deter them from that school. It's rather foolish to treat your future colleagues at other universities in such a way that will make them not want to support your department. If they think recruitment in some areas is bad now, make enough people angry (I'm definitely not the only one) and you're almost guaranteeing the downfall of your department. It almost went under not that long ago (10-15 years ago maybe?) and could have been overshadowed by our much smaller, less funded state rival. It could happen again. Or they continue to be overshadowed by departments at other schools in our conference. We might becoming an embarrassment joining a conference with very well known departments...
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Originally Posted by sadp8r
Hi I just read your post...first you found the right place to express your anger and let it out....also i want to say You sound very Intelligent and to me it seems You are also a "fighter".....tho i cant relate when it comes to college as ive never been to college...wasnt really smart enough and also crowds made me uncomfortable and i also felt like i wouldnt "fit in"...i have dealt with anger issues and i will be honest twice it scared me for i felt like i wanted to hurt these people who hurt me and ive never felt such rage before it scared me....but my counselor suggested i take a break and go to hospital for a while....im not recommending You go to hospital...but You seem braver and stronger...i know i cant find the words to help your situation but im proud of you for sharing your feelings and i do wish the best for you...you deserve it my friend.....
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At one point it was considered that I should go to the hospital, but I have a little more support in real life now and now I'm not really a danger to myself and others (I don't remember when I last self-harmed. It's been a while.)
Well, I do feel a little better overall (especially after typing out the reply to Lefty), but it's not like my anger's completely disappeared. I'll definitely continue to vent in this thread if I need to.