Thanks. I keep trying to tell myself that: that I'm doing well relative to other people my age. Then I talk to people who are my age and who have already graduated and started careers and are getting married and moving to places like Australia (okay that's one particular person I'm envious of) and I just...feel...sick.

I'm not moving back though. I can't. I would have to go back on Monday anyway: all of my stuff is in the other state! And I don't want to break up with my boyfriend. I really enjoy my life with him and I feel like our relationship is in a really good place. We don't want kids...but we just got a cat...and that sounds so little and silly but seriously we got a cat together and my whole brain was just like completely drenched in love for this guy. Like, I have a cat with you. This is forever. (Which yes I know that makes me sound super young and naiive and I'm partially joking and I know it probably won't last forever but hey.) Anyway, he's worth it to me. I don't resent him for the move or anything. Though, to be honest, if we broke up, I'd be off like a shot. But I do want to try to make this work, instead of running home after six weeks. I need to find a way to deal with how homesick I am :/