It's not easy but, as messed up as this is, it's still not even close to the worst thing that's ever happened to me. It's stressful but I've had something worse happen that tore me apart. I still haven't done anything about it. I'll set a reminder on my phone to schedule an appointment Monday. I can't keep putting it off and expect my fiance not to notice. He worries and keeps tabs on if I'm getting these sort of things done. Due to past events, he doesn't entirely trust me to do it (I can't blame him, if I had it my way I never would).
I really do appreciate the advice and encouragement. This website and my fiance are some of the very few places where I actually receive that. I don't take it for granted. Thank you.