Abby, just a quick response for now: I just read over this
ANP and EP and saw some similarities in the descriptions with what you said above. What do you think?
And again, quickly... I think, unfortunately, the only way through it is
through it. It takes time, and it is a painful, rocky road. But I reckon on the other side of it you reach a point where that constant fight for 'self' control no longer plays itself out.
But to get there, the trauma that is held by the 'others' needs to be acknowledged and embraced. Once that happens there is nothing to fight anymore.