i can relate bb... guess it really depends on my mood if i enjoy the solitude... sometimes i enjoy where i am, what i feel, what i see so much i think it would be great if there was another one there with me, just to feel how i'm feeling in that moment... other times my solitude is a healing time, not good for anyone to be around cause all i can feel is darkness, but i'm learning how it passes...

still, i think i am grateful for my ability to contemplate... i wonder if God may have put me through some of these things because the "undepressed" don't look deeper at issues that really, as a whole, people need to examine, so humanity as a group can mature... i guess i'm saying there may be an upside to depression.... what a mind-bender... i know this line of thinking is out of the norm, but i can't help feel there is some weight to it...any input is appreciated