is no one here. on the phone. i cant talk to anyone. what do i say? im insane? what can they do? no one can help. just need to distract. distract and then sleep. how am i going to sleep tonight? crap. hadnt thought of that. just distract. im ok. im ok. maybe im a little better. throwing up helps. i can breathe. i just feel really .. intense. and cryey. i cant think. dont let me think plaese.