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Originally Posted by mindwrench
There may be something to it. I don't do a lot of things anymore that an adult would normally be doing. I used to but it became too difficult and maybe that is somehow connected. The emotional thing I can relate to experiencing, as for a lot of years after i became an adult, I perceived other adults to have the same power over me that they would have if I was a still a child, and that has never really gone away. I have to remind myself that I'm 40 years old, and they don't have that power, and that probably causes a lot of my defensiveness with other adults as my first instinct is they mean me harm.
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I can really relate to thensure bolded part... I still experience that in everyday situations, especially if something triggers a childhood fear. My wife and I are in the process of buying a car. It's been a really triggering experience. One dealer acted as abusive and angry as my father would have. Another has the same first name... it's harder in situations like that to remember they don't have that control over me. I have a terrible time with anyone who actually holds any measure of power over me (bosses, medical professionals, authority figures of any type, heck even my landlord). I find myself being hypervigilant with them, apologizing for any possible indiscretion. It's so frustrating, yet very automatic.