This is my first weekend alone with my kids and no external support. I woke up with a horrible hacking cough, have stayed in bed all day. I have slept for most of it. I got nothing done today, I want to think that I am just sick, but I think that the reality of my situation with my wife/ex-wife?? is finally hitting me. I think I may be getting depressed, I just want to go sleep and cry, but my closet is full of crap from her cleaning her clothes out.
I need to find a way to get to the Gym so I can run until I puke, I am having self harming thoughts. How to do this with my kids here is the question. I am worried.