Feeling very irritable today. I drank yesterday foolishly to escape the depression I was feeling and relax socially, but it backfired, and I missed my meds. I don't even like myself when I am drinking. I did get another massage today since my neck has been killing me, and it was the high point of my day. I need to take better care of myself. Still very depressed and overwhelmed, but trying to cope and work through it. Sept 30 (my med appointment) cannot come soon enough, but I'm desperately looking forward to my therapy appointment Monday.