i wish i could remember the exact post i read recently and who posted it, but someone previously made a comment re youth and depression. something to the effect that at a young age so many teens seem ready to give up, give in... but you haven't lived yet. 16 years is only a portion of the long life that is waiting before you... there is no way to intelligently decide to live or die when you really haven't lived yet... for some of us we have to get thru some of the muck to find the pearls and that just plain takes awhile... give yourself a chance...

i am so sorry to hear about the abuses... now you know what bad is, maybe take some time and discover good... it really is out there... the doctor idea sounds like some great self-advice, go ahead, follow it, what have you got to lose?

love and more love...