I actually don't remember how much I thought about it. I think I was just so unhappy and grief-stricken and knew I wanted help. I had read my therapist's book before I started seeing him, though, and his style of working very much appealed to me. He was very explicit in the book about how being more compassionate toward yourself helps to alleviate a lot of anxiety and depression, so I was very much up for this kind of thing.