yeah i know

but i feel something so strong from this person, its a calling... and i have had these feelings before, but i just dont know hwo to act on them or what to do really...

i call it a crush because im not sure what to call it... i am not very experienced when it comes to any kind of relationsihps... friendships... family.. and stuff...

but i just feel something, its telling me, you know..?
and its all fine if nothing happens with her, but i just felt like i had to do something because of the feeling that i have had for so long.. im just not sure what to do because i suck at these things...
jus thought maybe i could talk to her and see what happen, but i cant get it out of my mind and she's just stuck in my head even though we have never really talked which kind of bothers me because i dont want to be a weirdo stalker crazy kind of person with obsession over someone... i think i jst really like her or something but maybe thats what a crush is?
like i said i dont know too much about it

i never hold onto anything in life though... the moment you try to hold on, someone snatch it away and take it all from you...