I know how it is hard to put trust in people, but in this case, you need to in order to get well. Like others said, the doctors and professionals are there to help you, not harm you. When I started putting trust in doctors and my family once again, my life improved and I no longer felt paranoid all the time when I let the doctors help me. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. I'm wishing you the best. Hugs.