I felt like that a lot when I lived in Chicago this last time (2004 - 2009). I spent a lot of that time screaming. My voice was constantly broken, and I was incredibly unhappy. I guess the best thing about having left there is that even when I feel like screaming these days, I rarely do. I've had much better luck living on the east coast. The west coast might have been even better though. But that seems so far away. (In the east and west of the USA.)

I hate to say it, but I will anyway. Please keep taking your meds. It will get better. When you're older, you can take trips to see if you feel better in Sydney or in Melbourne, if they are far away from you now. One day you might move for more happiness and better luck. [emoji813][emoji813][emoji813]:hug