Of course, perhaps all this ranting is just paranoia. I've recovered a lot from where I was last year by learning to trust and by allowing others to help me. I am also seeing my psychiatrist this week. Perhaps I just need to adjust my medication. I have been having to do a lot of meditation and distraction to tame my racing thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if I am bipolar but also fear that worrying about my mental health is what makes me feel so crazy!