I really hate myself because of my autism. My sister is much prettier than me and she has so many friends. I don't have any friends, and I've never had a long friendship. I can't stop being jealous of her and I'm the only one in my family who suffers from autism, and it sucks! They don't understand me, and I feel like I'm an alien in social situations. I don't belong anywhere. I probably never will accept myself and my awful autism. I just wish I had at least one autistic sibling or family member. But unfortunately this isn't reality.