In college I once dated this guy I was terrified to talk to the entire time we dated. I was told he was extremely intelligent. I was so afraid anything I said would be inane that my mind would either be completely blank or if I did have a thought I just simply couldn't open my mouth. It was terribly uncomfortable. We dated an excruciatingly long few months while I hoped it would get better with time. I even told him about it, I kind of had to. It did get a little better, but not enough. I knew I would always feel inferior & would never be able to open-up & be myself. It’s kind of sad really, he was never anything but exceptionally nice… maybe he could have been a soulmate.
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