Thank you again Jayne.
I'm in constant communication, via email, calls, with a woman I met online and she has such knowledge and understanding about life, relationships it's mind boggling.
So she returned my email about which I wrote the above.
The gist of such is that I need to set boundaries. She feels my guy has set them with me which is why he said what he said with one being don't call him until I'm feeling better. I felt it was because I had hurt him. This is not saying I haven't, yet my email friends seems to feel that since I don't know about his past relationships, maybe they played games with him, and then there's momma. In other words, my email buddy feels he might have felt I was playing games, which of course I wasn't. She said those words were just saying for me to wait until I'm more rational before I call, and that makes nothing but sense. She has a way of knowing how to calm me down...somehow. I guess it's a gift, and we all have gifts.
Before I read her I was planning to call him tomorrow night. But now I don't know. I might still. But it's a might for tomorrow night because I had planned what to say to him, but my planned words were coming from a fear of him leaving, and I have enough sense to know that's hardly rational. Yet, neither do I want to prolong this. It has to be done...setting boundaries. He has set them with me when he said what he said. He's letting me know that although he understands I have these issues, he will not tolerate playing games. And I totally agree! It took this to wake me up to the fact that, due to my own baggage I, at times, and unintentionally, play games.
You know something? I think I've finally grown up, and it took a man like this to make me swallow the grown up pill.