Thanks for the kind response Rose76.

My avoidant personality disorder is the result of being rejected/bullied from around the age of 9 to the age of 21. I'm almost 25 now so I'm not really much removed from those experiences that have ingrained an insecurity into me about how others will perceive me. I tend to take each meeting with someone as a new opportunity for them to not like me. Each relationship I find to be a subjective experience rather than something universal, but in each moment I am having a feeling of dread about possibly being rejected. The only rationality behind the anxiety is the negative experiences I've had in the past along with my thinking being very different than what's the norm in America. From those basis is reason enough for me to have my anxiety, I don't believe there's a rational cure for me personally in this matter.