Hey, if the mood is what it saids it is, I hope it's not too bad.

I don't know what you talking about. A calling? Maybe this is this language barrier or you're just weird like myself. I don't do any of those things well either, it's embarrassingly bad actually, that is if I had a normal sense of human understandings of things. We don't know ****, there's no progress in the world, the world is going faster so, relatively speaking, you're standing your ground fine. Dammit, I hate noticing this inauthenticity coming on to my mind, it's a little things like what I should share and not, a personal boundaries, am I too private? I wish you a great success on revealing yourself to that girl, a calling is a neat way to put it if you think about it, I'm just thinking somethign like new pathways opening up in your brain in a manner of speaking, that's... you have some theory, am I right?

Umm,,,I came here to vent tonight. I hope that's alright.

We have only this one blue planet to ****s with, we try to find like minded souls and pat each other's back when needed, **** like that. That's all what I observe and am supposed to do, that's called being polite and I don't do it.

Lemme explain. How polite are you? It really is the deliberation, the thoughts, and the decision making that's what counts in my life, and I forget important stuff like this often. Polite, there's always an opposite to things, right? Op-lite, you can be a heavy hitter, heavy weight champ, like an Ali. So where would you be polite and the opposite is of course to be impolite. Polite use to mean, 'make smooth' in Greek I think? Impolite meaning being rude, lacking the manner.

Then how do we make things smooth? If my soul exist, I can be light and float up somewhere, or be as heavy as can be and I'd try to stand my own grand on the surface of the earth. It's a free country, I can step on someone and roll over them if I wanted to, the point is the freedom requires responsible action takings, people seem to be forgetting that equality matters.

Like I kinda said, it really is awkward for me to think what I say or not to say, it still is.

I don't know what else to say. A stalker. There's a former stalker somewhere on this website, he's alright. There is/was also this person with psychopath medical label, the person seemed really nice, just as you'd guess, he/she couldn't feel any human emotions, it's just sad. Can s/he at least be sincere? I assume so...

Your writings always sound smart, I don't read much, but struggling experiences lead you to great wisdoms, you provide quality readings. Qualities and quantities. Your insatiable appetite for data gathering, I was worried that if that was overloading your brain, as long as you get a handle on,,,not sleep, on this undefinable sanity of ours, I don't see any problem with that.

Thanks for this random chat, a glass half full, you just drink it, now you may get to share that. It's a great thing. That's clever the things you said at the end, for now though, I think you can be just as glad and as hopeful as you wanna be, please keep reporting if there's any progress, you and I know so many poor souls put up 'lonely' mood on their accounts, you are giving them hope, try to remember that. No pressure though.