Honestly, I went thru a period of time of great anger... years ago.. but I have had years of therapy.. where I was indeed very angry with the pedophile.. I was angry sounds strange.. I know.. for not what he did to me at the time - I survived that... but I was very, very angry for the future that he took from me.. for the impact he had on my adult life.. for that I was angry.. for a very long time..

Thru therapy... I worked out that anger... and moved on.. I don't know how that worked.. it just did.. I processed it...

Having children, I had a child.. and felt because of my faith in God.. that he was a gift entrusted to me.. (because I was very ill at 19.. and told that I wouldn't be able to have children)... it really made me realize... that I loved life... I am in pain a great deal of time... but I love my son.. and he is such a blessing..

So for you.. I believe.. that you will work thru it.. as I did.. it does take time.. and it feels like the anger will never leave... but it can..

many, many hugs for you ((((hugs))))