Hi, I deal with some delusions myself as I do have a very paranoid personality myself. For instance, I notice that there is this one car that has been tailing me around lately, so immediately I believe it is government agents tailing me. I am a known opponent of my political government and have advocated insurrection before so this wouldn't surprise me tbh. But anyways, I get where you are coming from with the thouhts. Lack of control over my thoughts was what made me seek help medically. My first doctors visit I told him that I had no control over my thoughts, that they were racing, and that they werent mine, so yeah I got a schizophrenia diagnosis lol. However, when I went to my first pdoc he ruled schizophrenia out. Hoping for the best with you, everything will be fine, pdocs and therapists are there to help us out.