Oh, one more thing I found. I know that in general "treating" homosexuality is controversial topic. But also I found that there are lots of cases when something can be changed, and the typical case is as follows: "[..]therapists who counsel male clients with unwanted same-sex attraction say the underlying factors are nearly identical: an overbearing mother and a father who was distant or critical. [..] The therapists said their experience has shown them that a male client who engages in homosexual acts is subconsciously trying to compensate for a lack of confidence in his own masculinity."

And this seems to be EXACTLY my case, the reason why I'm "consuming" those poor men in my dreams and feel like a vampire who can never "eat" enough to feel himself as a real strong man....