I guess I don't feel loved because I'm not needed? I could leave and not look back and he'd forget me. I'm definitely bossy and needy but I had some sort of bad fainting spell which he insisted was a seizure about 6 weeks ago, followed by a gallbladder attack followed by being told my kidneys may need investigation as to what is causing pelvic pain. My mother is giving up living and quite elderly. My bf wanted to see me less and less and I blame myself for being too much stress for my bf. Although he works a good job that he doesn't say is too stressful and his one daughter is doing well so I don't understand why he thinks I am asking too much by wanting more time with him. I pay my share of our costs and we haven't really gone out much. It's as though he's happy to have sex once a week and then I'm supposed to leave.
Maybe he just doesn't like me. He has pointed out how bossy I am and I'm trying to understand what he wants me to change. The only thing he asks for is this distance from me but I need more support right now.