To me neuroplasty means changing your brain. There are positives, but why would you force yourself to be attracted to someone?

I think what might be happening is that you are searching for something you don't have and forcing yourself to find it in any place you can think of. It is natural by the way to question one's identity on occasion.

If it turns out you do find your identity expressend with men, why force yoursefl to be something else?