I have been dealing with depression for 3.5 years. My family knows about it and knows the extensive treatments that I've gone through.

Now lately, when I speak to my mother while I'm having a rough time she repeatedly tells me "you've just got to flip that happy switch." It completely enrages me. I want to SCREAM at her. When I hear her say this I feel like a 12 year old and I want to have a tantrum and say something like: "It's because you say things like that that I'm so screwed up in the first place! This is all your fault!"

If there was a switch I could flip don't you think I would have flipped it? So hurtful to hear--like I'm choosing this misery.

She said it again to me yesterday--she happened to call right when I was having a really tough time and I made the mistake of picking up the phone. She said: "You need to get some help!" I asked her what she thinks I've been doing for the past 3 years. I spend half my salary on therapy, have tried every alternative treatment I can find, five different meds, a day treatment program, biofeedback, meditation, yoga, aromatherapy, nutritional counseling, groups, a bunch of things I can't even remember, etc.

And then she said: "Well,...you've just gotta flip that switch!"

I quickly told her I had to go and got off the phone. It sucks.

Then she'll text me later on about something completely unrelated like the exchange never happened. It drives me nuts and makes me feel extra crazy.