if i can cut with an electric saw and really harm myself, it will be enough and I won't want to kill myself or die anymore. And I'm not doing anything "wrong" because it's mybody and I have the right to do whatevee I want with my own body. The rules are stuff like I can do wgat i want to myself but i cant harm anyone else in any way, i cant tell anyone I'm going to do it right before I do it, i can't call for help no matter how bad, I can take a taxi to the hospital but they hate me in the ER for wasting their time so I have to apologize and put myself down, I can only stay impatient if they force me with a court petition.