Just an update. I'm still doing well. I still do look and see how it's going exposing the abuses occurring in this organization. But I'm not obsessed with it. Feels so good! I wish I could share more but like I said there's ppl on pc in it. Not saying they're abusing ppl but I'm sure they've seen some of it happen.
I'm no longer ruled by it. Feels great! I suffered so badly from ptsd that I quit driving. It's been 19 yrs but I'm 're learning driving again by taking lessons and soon I'm hoping to have my license. I have a little money and I'm gonna get a car! It's going to open up so much for me. I'm hoping to join the Unitarian Universalist church and do some activism through there. Start taking a Spanish class, join the y, meet some new ppl. I'm really excited. From the abuse I went through I really isolated myself. I do have one really good friend but I hope to make more. I'm ready. I'm ready to trust again.
Thank you all for your support.