I had jury duty in July and got picked for a trial at the first selection. I started having more anxiety attacks as soon as I knew about the jury duty about 30 days prior and was horrified in the days right before it. During selection and during the trial I was popping Benedryl, and sucking on peppermints, trying not to throw up. They kept picking me to answer questions about my prejudice, or lack thereof and I had to answer questions about a crime I was a victim of because it was similar to the case. I had to answer all the questions in front of the whole courtroom. I was so tense my pain level made me sick, as I was holding all my muscles tight to keep from shaking, though I think the lady next to me could feel the seat move at times and she touched my arm and looked at me with concern.The prosecutor misrepresented the facts, and lied about the defendants actions which really shook me up, as I have fears of people lying or accusing me of false things. The prosecutor and bailiff kept looking at me. I took enough ibuprofin that my stomache burned like fire. The trial took a day and a half. As soon as I got to my truck each day, I would try to relax and start shaking, dry heaving in my floor board a few times, and fought back the tears so I could see to drive home. I never want to experience that again. I was so terrified of being in contempt of court, if I didn't show up, or couldn't finish the trial so I forced myself to do it. The fear of being dragged away to a terrible place to be tortured was my motivation to endure it. I had been in rough shape prior to the jury trial, but it sent my downward spiral to hell a little quicker.

At that point in time I had not sought treatment for my MI, and had no paperwork, or Dr. to back me up. People in my county have a habit of faking prejudice, or telling stories to escape jury duty, so I when I wasn't excused I didn't try anything else.