It's back and forth in my head like a ping-pong ball. To stay or go? My wife and I have been separated for six years. We have two kids, ages 7 and 9, whom I see regularly (3x a week). But for the past few months I have been so CONFLICTED about what to do. I MISS being with the kids 24/7 ssooooo much. I know people can understand that. Basically my wife and I had a pretty good relationship for two before our kids came along. I know that my wife wants (deep down) to get back together and "be a family" again. But she is tired of talking about it with me....I don't blame her, I analyze A LOT without much action. We can't go back the way it was...no one was very happy. But I feel like I am a spectator in my own great life. One huge fear I have is that my moving back in would screw up the kids. My wife is a rager. She will go off on me manically without warning, in front of the kids. It's gotten better but still a problem. One vision I have is us being back together again but in a whole new WAY. I don't know what that would look like. She and I would have to talk before reconciliation, if and when. I know there is the thing of the kids being with me every other weekend, etc. but that somehow sounds awful. Transporting the kids like luggage. Aaarrggghhh........it's frustrating.