I miss..

1. not feeling suicidal (starting most days and continuing with, I wish i was dead) that's not always been the case

2. the drink sunny delight (I loved it back in the 90's!)

3. my friend bethany (who killed herself)

4. my good memory

5. eating well (when I was a kid, no way did i binge). now my eating is so diffrent

6. my original playstation

7. not being in hospital as much as i am now

8. deecent sleep

9. my childhood (i mourn for it being cut so short)

10. good physical health (and feeling my age)

11. a quiet head (those voices have plenty of downsides)