My issues is feelings of shame and depression -- I internalized feelings of shame and "not being good enough" at an early age due to my mother and father's level of engagement -- particularly my fathers lack of providing and attention other than what he felt was interesting -- i.e. sports sports sports...I hated sports a little boy.

My mother was overwhelmed by me and her own depression and pass that feeling of not being good enough on to me...which I carry even today, some 40 years later.