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Originally Posted by lucidity11
years ago I worked a full time job and one, two and sometimes three part times jobs at the same time just so I didn't have time to be alone with my thoughts. the jobs gave me something to focus on. something to quite my mind. i got laid off and quickly lost my part time jobs. i didn't care. i ended up retiring and also received some uib because it was a forced retirement. with in five months my home had been hit by a hurricane and my renters were out. it took a year to repair my home but i had fallen back on my mtg payments and could recover. this all happened in 2012. the bank is finally making an effort to foreclose on my home. i don't know how much it will cost for a lawyer and i don't know what my options are. in this four year period i have lost many good friends to sickness. three days a friend died in his sleep and another daughter killed herself over the break up with a guy who was a **** bag. my son almost died in a car crash in july and is still going through physical therapy. during that time I was on auto piolet. He is bi polar and stopped taking his meds two weeks ago. I understand why he didn't want to take them. the side effects are debilitating and permanent. He so far dodged the side effects. while this is going on I am trying to manage my sanity and I don't know if I am winning. I was so close to leaving and hiding out were no on knows me. I just wanted it all to stop. I still want to isolate but far away. I will wait for my son to get back into the world and maybe someday i will just be on my way. without my jobs or something to occupy my mind i hear all the conversation the confusion the disagreement and it freezes me into doing nothing. i don't want to live my life doing nothing.
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I see your location is here in NY... one great thing about this state is we have many parks and recreation \ community centers where you can take recreational and seasonal classes for free and small fees. Some of the classes come with scholarships where the disabled and seniors get a discount and sometimes free. I know its not an actual job but it will supply you with activities that can help occupy your mind and maybe slow that internal confusion down. to find these classes go to your nearest senior and disabled center or your nearest parks and recreation office. they both will have booklets on what activities there are closest to you.
another idea check with your nearest high school and college. most high schools in NY have classes and community events that people in the community can help with and be part of, colleges also have many diverse activity/ hobby based classes, many are free, some are small fee and some come with scholarships that allow the senior and disabled to be part of the classes for free or a deducted\ lower fee.
edit to add... also many churches have opportunities for community involvement. maybe check with your local churches to see if there is anything you can help with or take part in