I miss many of the same things others do. I probably miss my 17-20 yrs most of all. I was out of the hell of school and was taking time off before starting college. I finally had some confidence in my appearance, took my youthful body for youthful granted, had a good little group of friends including boyfriends, didn't have all the adult responsibilities and wasn't expected yet to know what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I guess I was what they call ‘‘beginning to blossom.” It was a really nice time for me. I don’t know what happened after that. Instead of things just continuing in an upward trajectory, hell even straight ahead, they just seemed to decline from there.