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Originally Posted by eden1515
I don't know if melatonin is over the counter here is aus or not either way I am so tired of trying though doing what people say and it not working everyone keeps saying I am doing better but I feel worse I feel like I am about to explode any second like actually I feel terrible I don't know if I can keep taking the meds each day it gets harder and harder to keep doing that and I don't see a good reason to do it anymore anyway. Even at the hospital I just stopped talking about things that doesn't mean they stopped happening but I had to get out I had to make sure they thought I was fine. People don't get it I don't mean here necessarily but like in genral. I just I literally don't want to do it anymore I am so freaking tired and nothing will ever make it all stop.
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Eden,
I know you feel bad right now but keep taking your meds and keep trying. Its the only way your ever going to get better. It can get better too.
I was here when you first came here and I saw how bad you were doing back then. Even though its embarrassing to say this, it reminded me a lot of myself when I am manic. I get very psychotic and am way out there when I go manic so I am a lot like you are.
Now I am not saying I am perfect now, far from it. I still fight mild depression and sometimes the anxiety is out of control but at least the psychosis is gone and I live as normal of a life as I can. The meds are the key to this. Also be honest with your Dr so he can adjust meds or switch meds until they find something that works for you. That's the only way to beat this illness. Hugs