Today is a down day and I'm not sure why. I slept 11 hours and I'd like nothing more but to just go back to bed but I have to babysit. My anxiety has been monumental lately so I've had to up the coping skill usage and haven't resorted to Ativan yet. I might take some later though.

I'm nervous to tell pdoc what's been going on but hoping it all goes away soon. Keep feeling spiders are crawling on me. Remind myself they're not. (Flashback to a night in ip where I scratched my arms maroon and told nurse I felt them all over me and she gave me Thorazine.)
Feel dead or stuck in a dream. (Is this real life?) seeing spiders and I hate them!