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Originally Posted by ThisWayOut
Iapologize if this doesn't make sense. Part of me knows better than to respond to anything after anight of very little sleep... I read this, and am struggling to see how some of this stuff isn't "normal"... I guess though it's an individual thing.
I've never been much for meal planning our balancing my checkbook beyond keeping track of my balance. I can relate to having plans of things to accomplish but finding I'm lost in dissociation or depression most of the time.
I'm pretty drained by social interaction, especially when my ptsd or depression is at a high. If I have to work, all my energy goes into maintaining the facade fakir the shift. Once I get home, I melt into s lump...
Sorry I don't have much advice, I can just relate to having things fall apart.
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Thank you for what you shared! I guess the things I'm feeling deficient in are things that make me feel like I have it all together. It's like if I can appear I have it together on the outside, the inside won't be seen. I guess the tasks I mentioned are things that I think make it look like things are "good" - I'm good - everything's good. Basically, a mask of sorts.
Luce's post is coming back to me, about the "processing time" and I'm thinking that I can try to appear to be "good" but the processing has to happen, and it's going to one way or the other. I believe it has an override key.
I believe that needs to be in my daily schedule. If I respect that part of me, maybe it will show me mercy.
Maybe?