Well just a quick update on this. The forum guy and I had a chat and we fell out a bit. He basically accused me of using him when I had been on holiday to see him. I felt he used me and this has got to the point where I have had enough. Being his friend isn't helping me and I'm not helping him so I have unfollowed him on Facebook and am going to ignore any messages he might send. I know that I didn't use him and the situation has messed with my head long enough. He seems to think I forced myself on him, when in fact I kissed him and he kissed me back. He wanted to go further than I did that day and says he only wanted to be friends. I'm not sure why someone who just wanted to be friends would kiss a girl back and he French kissed me and not the other way round. He told me he would take things as slow as I wanted when we were together and then afterwards said he hadn't wanted a relationship. He now says he only ever wanted to be friends. I wanted a proper relationship and he has accused me of using him. He wouldn't explain why. Can anyone tell me how from that description I used him?

Anyway I can't deal with being hurt any more and talking to him at all upsets me as I feel he is just being friends for the sake of it. He seems to almost be saying I sexually harassed him and am annoying him bringing it all up again. It's best just to let him go and try and get on with the rest of my life. It will be hard but I have to to get past it all. He has made it clear that he will never want to be with me and I won't get over it unless he is out of my life.

It is going to be horrible but I have to do it.